To Do or Not To Do, My Tug of War!

Last night was the best night I've had because after trying for almost two months now I finally managed to go to bed before midnight.  To me that is like finding a four leaf clover!  Unfortunately, tonight I failed once again.

I've just finished the 7 Day Travel Writing Magic and contemplating on doing the real thing as suggested.  I've been thinking for years now yet I have not done anything about it. I know it's unlikely for me to make money from writing but I love and enjoy putting words in visual form and just the thought of learning how to blog properly makes me feel like wanting to get on the e-bandwagon of writing enthusiasts.

Well I have been out of my depths lately.  Too much change needed to be considered. I know I can no longer remain the way I have in the past four years. I wonder if Life gets a bit bored waiting for us to make some changes and when we settle down and feel too comfortable where we are, Life kicks us from behind in a big way!  I wish I knew if this is what just happened to me.

I love to travel.  When I left my marriage I was told by my ex that would be the end of my dreams.  It took me a long time to recover.  Then I had to start from scratch, re-trained, got a job before I was able to eventually travel.  And I have been happy and thankful and grateful of God's blessings.  Yet my travels are short and far in between due to annual leave constraints and inadequate finances. I admit there is a longing in my heart when I go away to not return too soon and to just keep going until, but that's not my reality.

My dream is to travel at least for a few months.  I don't feel I know my own self.  To be out there where I only have myself to rely on I think will help me find out what I do not know about the person called me!  My son just told me to toughen up!  Sometimes I am told it is not always good to be nice nor always nice to be good!  To go or not to go, that is the question I need to answer in the next few weeks.